Thursday, July 31, 2008

Celebrations and Looking Forward.

A couple of the girls from my classes had their last class tonight. They start their externships next week and then they are done with the program. We all went out to celebrate tonight. We went to a bar and had a few drinks and toasted their success. It really got me thinking about the fact that I tend to make friends very unexpectedly. I am going to miss them, and in two months it will be my turn and I am going to be saying goodbye to my classmates and moving on. Weird that until tonight I didn't really think that it would bother me as much as it is. As humans we tend to get into a pattern and get comfortable with things being as they are, and often we don't notice how comfortable we have made our surroundings until something changes. It will be strange in two months when I no longer have to be in class every evening. I am going to miss my instructors and my classmates. I am going to miss the homework even. (Yes I know that is really pathetic but that is what you get when you know me) In some ways I am so excited for my chance to be toasted. I can't wait until we go to a bar and have a few drinks and say goodbye to friends. However there is a part of me that is not ready to say goodbye. So I will probably keep in touch with most of them. I know I will keep in touch with some of them. Somehow I am becoming a reluctant part of this place, even though I really tried not to. It will be hard when it comes time for us to move again. I really hope that this next move is one of the last. It seems tha tall of my life has been spent loading and unloading a moving van and all I really want is to settle.

Ok enough rambling. Due to the fact that I went out drinking tonight and will be doing the same tomorrow, I have decided not to start my training program for the "OH S**T, I'm turning thirty" list until sunday. I am however starting to feel the anxiousness of getting prepaired for something big. I am going to be looking for a 5K, 10K and half to sign up for and also get the deets for the Grand Island Marathon. I figure if I can schedule them roughly every three months then I will have plenty of time for training in between. Hopefully. Last night I got the question of, " What happens if you can't do it by then?" And the answer is then I won't. I am not looking to have the best time in the world right now I am just looking to finish. I want to be able to look back and say " I planned it, I worked for it and I did it!" I don't think this is too much to ask of myself. Even if I am the last person to cross that finish line I will be proud of myself for finishing it. I will be happy that I was able to do something that I never thought I would be able to do. Am I really being unreasonable guys? Am I setting my goals to high? Feedback needed! You were all beginners once yourselves, how long did you run before your first marathon, and when do you think you could have safely finished it even if you couldn't run the whole thing? If it is really unsafe then I can change my goals, but if there is a possibility of my being able to do this then I want to try.

Happy Training,
Love Jenn


MizFit said...

(thoughts from a not long distance runner.)
" I planned it, I worked for it and I did it!"

stuck in my mind as I read your post in that if you dont do the first piece (the plan. the striving. THE WORKING.) there is absolutely no chance for the last one.

IMO it isnt important at all now whether you can run all the races as that's not todays concern.
today is when you start/keep preparing.
reaching for your goals.
sure, RIGHTBEFOREEACHEVENT you might have an evaluation point (esp.for the marathon) of "am I risking my health etc. by attempting this?" but today and for a while ahead all you need to focus on is training & trying or there is NO CHANCE IT'LL HAPPEN and we all need goals!

(and visualizing. Im a big believer in The Secret as applied to athletics!)


Jenn said...

I agree that the planning and working are the important parts and would never run any of the races if my health was at risk. However I don't think it will hurt me to train for it anyway's. I also believe in the principles of the Secret and have been trying to incorporate that into my life. I am still new and struggling with it, but at least I am trying.

Thank you for your advice. I think I am going to train for this even if I have to back out in the end. At least I will be trying.


MizFit said...

ACTUALLY, Girlfriend, this:

At least I will be trying.


you'll be DOing and thats whats important.

take care,

Jenn said...

Ok,movie geek...
"You're right, you're right, I know you're right!"

Thanks for the love!