Thursday, June 30, 2011

Frustration, Realization, and Execution

Hi there Peeps! (or Peep?),

I have had my ups and downs in this life I have chosen.

Recently I have been doing a lot of reading about nutrition and how your body is supposed to be fueled. I started following a mostly Paleo/Primal diet and after a few off days I started to feel amazing! It was like waking up from a bad dream. My head was clear, my digestion was normal, my energy was high and I was happy!

Then we ran low on money. I am still unemployed at the moment because we just have not been anywhere long enough for me to get a job. So with funds running low I started eating some of the off plan foods that where left in the cupboard. Now I am tired, achy, and cannot focus. My head is pounding and my digestion is bad.

I used to live my whole life like this? How did I function? I cannnot even imagine getting through anything that requires me to stay awake and pay attention right now. I cannot live like this anymore.

While in Norfolk, NE I started going to the gym everyday. I loved it! It was the best part of my day. I would go in there and I would pick a machine to conquer then I would pound it out as hard as I could for as long as I could. I would make bargains with myself. "Just 5 more minutes then you can stop." "Come on, you have almost completed that mile." "Lets try that again, I know you can do better." Every day I went in there and tried to go just a little farther and a little faster than the day before. I felt good.

Then in Kansas I would walk most days. If I could find a park that was great, but if not, I just took to the streets. Kansas is where I discovered the Paleo/ Primal solution.

Now we are in Iowa and it looks like we may be staying for a while. My goals right now are to get a job, get a gym membership (more on this later) and take a crack at the Whole30 challenge to reset my system and start the process of healing. I wanted to start it on July 1st but that is most likely not going to happen. I will be trying to get back on course though and hoping for August 1st as my Whole30 start date. We shall see.

In the mean time I will try to do better about keeping this blog updated and using it as a way to keep myself accountable.

Lots of love to the 2 people who accidentally read this. I hope you stick this out with me, but if not, I will understand. ;-}


Jude said...

How can someone who leaves fairy dust in her wake as she moves thru life also be so grounded and solid when there is the need for practcality? Hope that things fall into place beautifully and quickly--best wishes coming your way.

Romana said...

Good luck Jenn, I know you'll meet your goals.
i want you to know that my heart is always with you, even if my spastic, flaky-brain isn't here every day... since i have children, I'll blame them.
I also want you to know that you are an inspiration to me. I've found a local instructor that teaches three different Zumba classes a week, and I'm going to sign up. Also going to get myself and the kids on a healthier diet again.
You are a strong amazing woman, and I'm proud to know you :)
PS, if you tell anyone that I'm dancing in public, I'll give you incentive to run *grin*

Jenn said...

Jude- I am leaving fairy dust behind me? Shoot, I must have a leak!
Seriously though, thank you so much! I really appreciate your kind thoughts and well wishes. You are one amazing woman!

Mana- I think you just ratted yourself out love! Thank you and I love you! Hugs to the kiddos!